Facing an exam

I am going to face CAT on dec 4th. Starting to feel slight excitement - mixed tension. I am sort of happy that I am tensed. Well.. I know that it sounds ridiculous. But what to do? It happens to be the truth. The thing is that, I haven't experienced this sort of a tension ever since I entered into engineering college. Tension indicates that you have a wish to do well in the exam.. right? So that's what I am happy about.

But, I don't say that I wrote all my engineering exams the easy going way. There was tension, but of a different sort. There, the thoughts were like, "God.. what the f*** the SOBs are gonna ask?', "The assholes who wrote the syllabus should be shot" "Donno if I'll be able to write down some crap and get pass mark" etc. Now it is like "God.. will I be able to crack at least two sets in Di?", "Donno what the pattern of the exam will be".. and so on..

Obviously, the second way of facing an exam is much better. It feels better when you don't hate the exam, the questions asked, and the topics from which the questions are being asked.

I wish if I could love my Engineering subjects. Sigh..